Lost 1.8 pounds, which is a miracle given how much beer I drank this week.

So on Friday, I brought all my beer to work and gave it away. Goodbye, my love!

Last night I was upset about something and drank 2 beers. But I did not overeat, and that’s a start. Still, I have to find another way to cope when I’m upset.

Since I had 2 beers, I lost weight this morning of course (water loss) but it will be interesting to see what my weight does over the next three days. Even though really I shouldn’t be paying attention.

Still not exercising. I have a cut on my foot that makes just walking to my car a painful experience.

An interesting news article about a 21 day challenge to stop complaining, criticizing, gossiping, and sarcasm.

“Complaining draws all of its essence from negativity,” the 47-year-old Bowen says. “When you complain, you do it typically to attract attention or sympathy. It’s you saying, ‘There’s something wrong with me.’

“You’re sending out this vibrational energy into the universe that you’re a victim, and the universe responds with more negativity.”

He explains it this way: “Complaining is saying, ‘Man, that sucks.’ What changes things is saying, ‘This is not the way I would like it to be. This is how I would like it to be.’ It’s painting a picture or creating a vista to get people to look in that direction. It’s where you want to move toward.”

“When you’re not articulating complaints then they have nowhere to go, and your brain literally stops producing them, and you become a happier person,” he says.

I just can’t believe I haven’t been hungry! This is fabulous!

I worked BRIEFLY in the yard yesterday, but still haven’t exercised since Saturday. Yesterday my doctor reluctantly gave me Phentermine. I’m hoping it will give me more energy in the evenings and I’ll exercise. But to be honest, the GENERIC one-a-day weight loss vitamin I took yesterday gave me plenty of energy.

In my water at work I put a cup of green tea. It’s supposed to help with weight loss. I can hardly taste it (lots of ice), so it makes no difference to me if I drink it or not.

I hate the grocery store and all who dwell there.

OK, it was not that bad yesterday. I actually had a courteous checkout guy.

I bought WAAYYY too many fruits and veggies. Most will undoubtedly go bad before I can eat them all.

Lesson Learned: I will just have to accept the fact that I have to go to the grocery store weekly for fruits and veggies. I cannot buy in bulk and hope it stays good for the whole month.

Yesterday I did well. Still no feelings of hunger or deprivation UNTIL I see some good food on a TV commercial. Workaround: Tivo every show and skip the commercials.

One “bad” thing I did was I had one light beer. However, I had skipped all fruits and veggies until the evening, so I didn’t go over my allotted CALORIES. But it wasn’t a healthy choice. I’m not going to beat myself up over it, but I still have to watch it.

Still, any other night I would have had 2-3 beers. So I’m doing OK.

Still not moving. Maybe today after my MD appointment?

I’ve been working 7-3:30, but maybe next week I’ll go back to normal hours so that I have daylight in the morning for walks.

Day one was a succes in that I loved the food and really wasn’t hungry!

However, I didn’t make it to the grocery store so I didn’t eat my fruits and vegetables, nor my dairy. I did eat one extra Anytime Bar, so I think the calories equaled out. But I didn’t get my fiber and calcium.

Today after work I have my grocery list and will go grocery shopping.

I’m surprised at how un-hungry I was. I didn’t even want a beer!

JC food is REALLY good. I’m surprised at that too.

My drawback from yesterday, besides not going to the grocery store, is that I didn’t move at all. I was a slug. I had work to do, yardwork to do, and a walk to take and none got done. I know I have a problem with not wanting to move on the weekends. That’s why I made my appointments for Saturday mornings with my JC coach; to get out of bed! Now I have to find a similar task for Sunday.

I’m listening to the first track on “28 days to motivate” and I thought I’d take some notes.

Day 1: Always Remember Why

Celebrate the reasons I’ve chosen to lose weight.

Lots of little resons made me decide to finally lose the weight. Today, I’m focusing on this reason: Lack of control over my eating (and my life).

I need to picture what I looked like when I was thinner. I think I was about 140 when I got married at the age of 23, and I was anything but thin at that weight. Still, I felt confident about myself and I’d like to dream about having that confidence again.

What’s on my mind today: It takes COURAGE to change your life. For the past five years, I’ve let negative self-talk “trick” me into taking the easy way out, making irresponsible and self-indulgent choices regarding food and drink, and letting myself go because I thought I didn’t matter. Today, I congratulate myself for starting this life change. I used my weight as an excuse to put my life on hold for the past SIX YEARS! I wasted my 30’s! Well, no more! My 40th birthday is in June of 2008, and you’ll be seeing a lot less of me when I reach that milestone.

Starting weight: 217